The circle of Life

Life is so cyclical. Both great and terrible instances seem to reoccur across people's everday life it is even seen on the world view. The trick is getting through the negative instances with as much ease as possible and moving on to the better cyclical things. Oh and don't forget finding a way to change that circular motion by doing things out of the ordinary.

Standing on Topf of the World

Can be so calming. Every laboring step is very much worth the serene feeling of conquering the mountain. As if the awe inspiring 360 degree view wasn't enough.

Wheres love come from

Wheres love come from

Wheres love go

What feeds love

What makes it grow

Its all we need and we need to know

Wheres love come from

Wheres love go

Used to have a gal lived down below

Used to go to see her but I don't no more

I let fear close up my heart

Love fell away and it fell apart

Love is handsome

Love is kind

Love is simple and so sublime

Love can not live on its own

You gotta make love feel at home

Wheres love come from

Wheres love go

What feeds love

What makes it grow

Its all we need and we need to know

Wheres love come from

Wheres love go

Saw love walking down the road

He had a weary mind, had a heavy load

He said theres two hearts outside of town

Too long since I came around

If I get there

Before too late

They might not fill their hearts with hate

I'll knock on the door

If they let me in

Theres a real good chance love could win

Wheres love come from

Wheres love go

What feeds love

What makes it grow

Its all we need and we need to know

Wheres love come from

Wheres love go

Well mama died two years ago

She told her children here I go

Said The hardest thing in life I'll do

Is try to say goodbye to you

Sister was there

For her last breathe

She said it was a very peaceful death

But mama's love lives on and on

Its like some never ending song

Wheres love come from

Wheres love go

What feeds love

What makes it grow

Its all we need and we need to know

Wheres love come from

Wheres love go

My recent posts are the lyrics to songs I've been learning!!!

Walking Boss

Walking Boss

Walking Boss

You're the Boss

But I don't belong to you

I belong

I belong

I can get along

With that steel driving crew

I went to the captain

Said I need a job

Said I need a job

And he said son what can you do

Said I can line the track

I can line the track

I can low the jack

I can pick and shovel too

Walking Boss

Walking Boss

You're the Boss

But I don't belong to you

Well I asked my captain

Said whats the time of day

I asked for the time of day

And he said he throwed his watch away

Walking Boss

Walking Boss

You're the Boss

But I don't belong to you

I belong

I belong

I can get along

With that steel driving crew

Now this old hammer

It killed John Henry

Killed John Henry

But it damn sure won't kill me

Im-a go down the mountain

See my baby

See my baby

And I ain't ever coming back

Walking Boss

Walking Boss

You're the Boss

But I don't belong to you

I belong

I belong

I can get along

With that steel driving crew

Well there ain't no hammer

On this here railroad

On this here railroad

That can ring half as big as mine

Ring like silver

Shine like-a gold

It ring like silver

And it shine just like gold

Walking Boss

Walking Boss

You're the Boss

But I don't belong to you

House of Gold

Some people steal, they cheat and lie
for wealth and what it will buy
Don't they know on the judgement day
that their gold and silver will melt away

What good is gold and silver too
if your heart's not pure and true
sinner hear me when I say
Fall down on (you better get down on)your knees and pray

I'd rather be in a deep dark grave
and know that my poor soul was saved
than to live in this world in a house of gold
and deny my God and doom my soul

Some people steal, they cheat and lie
for wealth and what it will buy
Don't they know on the judgement day
that their gold and silver will melt away

Pretty Fair Maid was in Her Garden

Pretty fair maid was in her garden
When a stranger came a-riding by
He came up to the gate and called her
Said pretty fair maid would you be my bride

She said I've a true love who's in the army
And he's been gone for seven long years
And if he's gone for seven years longer
I'll still be waiting for him here

Perhaps he's on some watercourse drowning
Perhaps he's on some battlefield slain
Perhaps he's to a fair girl married
And you may never see him again

Well if he's drown, I hope he's happy
Or if he's on some battlefield slain
And if he's to some fair girl married
I'll love the girl that married him

He took his hand out of his pocket
And on his finger he wore a golden ring
And when she saw that band a-shining
A brand new song her heart did sing

And then he threw his arms all around her
Kisses gave her one, two, three
Said I'm your true and loving soldier
That's come back home to marry thee

Pretty fair maid was in her garden
When a stranger came a-riding by
He came up to the gate and called her
Said pretty fair maid would you be my bride

Why does today seems so nerve wracking? Restless sleep to go along with a restless feeling...

50 Questions to Ask Yourself

Probing into myself isn’t easy. I’m so thick-headed. I can adequately probe someone else, but when it comes time to ask myself, “what do I want?” I always come up blank. So as an exercise for myself and you, I’ve created a list of questions to ask ourselves to help define that passion. They are not in any particular order, except for my own random stream of consciousness. I tried to avoid common cliche questions, as I’ve never found them helpful and you probably wouldn’t either.

1. How do you really feel about what you are doing right now at this exact moment?
2. What is your fondest childhood memory? Who was there? What was going on?
3. How comfortable are you in your home?
4. How comfortable are you in your town/city? State?
5. What kind of weather do you like?
6. Do you believe you can have your cake and eat it, too? Why or why not?
7. What is one quality about your parent(s) that you really loved?
8. What is one quality about your parent(s) that you really do not like?
9. Do you like what you are doing for money?
10. What do you feel is your greatest skill?
11. What do you feel is your greatest personality trait?
12. Do you feel like anything in your life is holding you back from ultimate joy? List everything.
13. Write a paragraph or two about your ideal weekend/time away from work. Include location, sights, smells, food, activities, and people.
14. How close are you in proximity to the people you absolutely adore the most?
15. What do you want out of life?
16. How do you think people will remember you, when you die?
17. How do you want people to remember you, when you die?
18. Write your epitaph - the sentence you would want to appear on your grave.
19. What is one thing you could do today, this week, this month, or this year to get a step closer to creating the legacy in #17?
20. How do you feel about your home furnishings?
21. Do you have a hobby that you like to do but you don’t get paid for? What is it?
22. Does money hold you back from anything? What does it hold you back from? Be very specific.
23. What do you think of passionate people?
24. Do you know anyone who you feel is living their dream? Who? What do they do all day and night? Be very specific.
25. Do you think you can be completely satisfied living where you do right now?
26. What do you want to accomplish?
27. Do you want to change your career?
28. Do you wish you lived closer to a certain someone or group of people?
29. Do you wish you lived in a foreign country or a far away state?
30. What are three things that you do everyday that make you totally happy?
31. What do you want to pass on to your children?
32. What is something you have never tried but would like to?
33. Are there things in life you wish you could reverse or make right?
34. Do you feel like you have enough money to live the way you want to?
35. Are you happy when you think about the upcoming day and all that it comes with?
36. What do you find challenging?
37. What do you find thrilling?
38. What are three memories you haven’t yet created but you would like to?
39. Do you feel energized when you work?
40. Do you feel creative when you work?
41. Describe what you consider work, and what you consider play. What are the differences?
42. Do you feel blessed or lucky to wake up each day? How can you get to that point?
43. If all of your debt was forgiven tomorrow, and you had a completely clean slate, what is the very FIRST thing you would change about your life?
44. Where are three places you have always thought about living but never did?
45. When do you want to retire?
46. Is there an award or accolade you have always dreamed of winning or being recognized for?
47. If you could learn how and money was not an issue, is there anything else you would do for work besides what you are doing now? Be specific.
48. List three things you would immediately change about your work day if you were the boss (assumes you are not the boss).
49. List three things you would immediately start doing on the weekends if you had the money.
50. Imagine it is a big holiday and you are with your loved ones and you are living what you truly love. When they ask what you have been doing, what do you say in reply? The answers will be a post for another time. But in the mean time I challenge everyone to ask these same questions about themselves.

Ugh to another day of loneliness and boredom. I did some job searching today, because well I am waiting and waiting and waiting for my other job to come through... Now I sit at home and wait for people to get off work... my life has turned into a game of waiting and it sucks.

Selfish by Nature?

No one can help... I hate this feeling, but it is turning out to be true. The help people offer has just been making the feeling worse. Still the love and friendship people have shown is absolutely regarded with thanks and respect. Other people on the other hand have been exceedingly selfish. While I think it is important for each person to be at least a little bit selfish, it has made me raise my eyebrow more than a few times.

It has always been apparent that the human race is selfish by nature. Does that mean I should expect myself to be selfish more often? I do feel that a fair amount of time I act selfishly... mostly unconsciously...

From a distance

I told myself I would dwell less on my incessant need to know all the answers to companionship and loneliness... It has not worked according to plan, but now every time I write a post about sad thoughts, the things that are hard to write and harder to read, I plan on following that post with a positive or enlightening post. So here goes....

Proof how seeing something from a distance can fool your perspective of what is actually happening

Colorful hillside? Yes, but there much more when you look close

Just when you think you know what you’re looking at, things change when you zoom in. The answer lies after the jump. (Pics)

A complete ocean of penguins!

Afraid/Excited

I had accepted the fact that you were leaving. Grown comfortable that you'd no longer be around. I saw it as an opportunity to reconnect with you through, skype and letters, little messages sent to Tucson... and eventually a visit. Now that you are staying I am so afraid... Afraid I will not be able to stand knowing that we can not spend time together cause its too much stress on you. Afraid of missing you more than I already do. Afraid that I may drive myself insane with an emotion I am not used to feeling. On the other hand I am so excited that you are staying until September and think its amazing that you will be around that much longer. Everyone that would have missed you will get an extra dose of your wonderful cure-all personality. Excited that I will be able to see the sunshine of your smile and the sweet purity of your eyes once again. Excited that maybe this distance will pass before you are gone to big and better things.

I am also afraid for you... I know how much you needed to escape the confines of Colorado. Hopefully that feeling has changed. Afraid that you may fall into a pattern of 'where am I going, when am I going.' Afraid that you will have to deal with my craziness and not be able to stand me anymore. But then again I am so excited to see how you spend the rest of your time in Colorado. Excited that you will have more time to sort out the things on your heart and your mind before saying goodbye to this beautiful state. Excited that you will enjoy the likes of Water World and Boondocks for that much longer, not to mention all the climbing time you will have. Excited to see where Colorado takes you before you have a date with a new state.

Reading Therapy cont....

To dance every step, be they through gardens of bright flowers or through deep snows. The young know this truth, so many of the old, or even the middle aged, have forgotten, Such is the source of the anger, the jealousy, that so many exhibit toward the young, So many times have I heard the common lament: " If only I could go back to that age,knowing what i know now!" Those words amuse me profoundly, for in truth, the lament should be, "If only I could reclaim the lust and joy I knew then."

That is the meaning of life, I have come at last to understand, and in that understanding, I have indeed found that lust and that joy. A life where that joy and lust, where that truth is understood might be more full than a life of centuries with head bowed and shoulders slumped. How strange that as I gained more to lose, I allowed that lust to diminish.

It took me this long, through some bitter losses, to recognize the folly of that reasoning...

On a Lonely Morning

I feel extra lonely this morning... no clue why but it is like a crate of bricks weighing down my mind. Loneliness is a strange feeling. There are people around, friends... yet the stagnant feeling remains. It has been five days since I have heard from Lisa, I guess it should be expected though. Having trouble sleeping never helps this feeling either. So I wade through the ever deeper feeling of loneliness today. And I hope that this day, the 4th, one that represents freedom and independence fills me with the same values.

Waiting...

I feel like I am waiting for something to happen...

Something great, the things that dreams are made of...

Is trying enough? is it luck? is it karma?

Is the incessant need for greatness and excitement normal? Or is it a disease?

It is appreciated either way.

Sometimes the effort just is not enough.

So I wait, watch and wonder...

Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek.

The world is all gates, all opportunities, strings of tension waiting to be struck.

You can't stay in your corner of the forest waiting for others to come to you. You have to go to them sometimes.

We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.

This is the time of your lives... Shouldn't every moment be spent trying to be the time of your life? Is that not what life is about?