Apology

I was hoping things would change over this past week... The problem seems to be that I'm overbearing. I want to take hold of the reigns and make things work... fix problems, help her figure things out, help her feel like she wants to feel. But instead of helping I always feel like I put more pressure on the situation and she walks away from our conversations and texts wanting to avoid the extra stress. The catch that really makes me crazy is, that I am just assuming... and the assumption is most likely wrong. Either way, this feeling is attributed to my continuous want to be apart of her life. With her great new friends its time to take a seat on the back-burner and let her live life as she sees fit with the people that make her comfortable. So instead of imposing my wants to help, I will help by not helping until I hear differently. I want to apologize for all the times I've added stress to her nights out with other people, to the days she just needs to be by herself and I interrupted, the moments I selfishly added my insecurities to her already busy life... Finally I am sorry about this post for I know she is one of the few people that will read this and I hope it doesn't add the stress I am desperately trying to keep her away from...

What I am not sorry for is being in love with her and wanting to help, just acting on those instincts.